Who Am I?

That’s the question that has been on my mind,
Looking far and deep; I wonder if I know myself privately.
Adjectives words won’t mean anything to me,
As all of those beauty are insignificant personally.

Not good enough, not smart enough,
No wonder I feel so incomplete.
The feeling of not being able to achieve,
Has been boggling  through my mind endlessly.

Good looks and masculinity is what the society sees,
But I am neither one of those so please help me.
Feminine and soft are what I have been called,
Along with other offensive names that I couldn’t bare to reveal at all.

Sexuality is another matter that they want to know,
If I am normal as what the religion foretold.
But who can believe when I tell them the truth,
They judge and spread lies  for their own amuse.

I have been defined as crazy for countless times,
As I visit a mental institution  to ease my mind.
It’s all in my head, is what I have been told,
But how could I go on living when I am not in control.

Society perceives as how they want to,
I cannot change their judgement as much as I could.
In actuality I have been affected by these,
Towards the views of myself, I wonder who I am really is.

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25 thoughts on “Who Am I?

  1. It’s difficult to be young and to feel or to be seen as different. I can tell you that it gets better but that does little to mitigate the pain of the moment. I will say that as I’ve aged I’ve come to see that most of those aspects of me that people hated were gifts. There will come a day when you will see this too…I can see it in your words. 🙂

    Rob Goldstein

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